True Confessions of an Overthinker

Let me tell you about how my friend Blob made me feel better recently. So did Blib! There were other caring angel-friends too. This story is a closure to my last post. It's my final one for now about my eye surgeries and ongoing recovery. Please hang in there with me, because this is about so much more than medical problems. I posted this on Facebook during the first week of April: "Well Friends, I had another "first" yesterday since my eye surgeries. I was paying for my groceries at Walmart. The check-out young lady said "I don't mean to offend you but what is that thing in your eye?"  I explained that it's scar tissue from a recent eye surgery. Yes, my bleb shows. It will probably always show. I'm not too thrilled about that, but at least it has a funny name. Bleb. Things could be so much worse though. " Here are a couple of responses that made me laugh initially, then inspired deeper thoughts... Friend One : " I just had...

I had an experience in the check-out line at Walmart last week. It brought up conflicting emotions. I should have been able to laugh it off. Well I did laugh a little, but I cried too. I sensed that I was being watched as I got my bank card out of my wallet and swiped it in the little machine. When I looked up, the young cashier said "I don't mean to offend you, but what is that thing in your eye?" I said "Oh, it's okay. That's scar tissue from a recent eye surgery." She asked if it would go away as the eye heals. Nope, it's not likely. The thing she saw in my eye is not really scar tissue. It was just easier to say that than to explain that the raised white patch on the upper part of my iris is a filter for eye fluid. It's called a bleb. Then I would've needed to explain that I have advanced glaucoma in that eye. I'd continue to tell her that I had a tiny valve implanted in that eye (left) on December 17th, because three p...

Hi Friends, This is a "note to my readers" post instead of my typical storytelling. In January of this year, I posted a three part story, which chronicled my vision problems, from early childhood to present. It was entitled "A Guinea Pig's Perspective". Like many writers, I often work through my difficult issues by writing them down. I had just had an eye surgery a month before I wrote that story.  I knew at the time that I had a second surgery scheduled for the next month. I realized a couple of weeks after I shared those posts that I'd missed the purpose of this blog. It was very good for me to write it because it helped me, but I decided it was better to keep for my eyes only. It was more like a personal journal entry. My medical situation is not something that applies to most of my readers or the general public.  And you busy people ain't got time for that! However, I've since discovered a magazine that wants to publish non-fictio...

Now, last but not least, I'm sharing links to fifteen blogs that I highly recommend. (My list is quite varied in topics and writing styles). Paying it forward is one of the VBA rules, but I'd be proud to share these blogs anyway. These writers deserve more than a pretty green seal of approval- their work deserves to be read! You can find out more about the Versatile Blogger's Award here: https://versatilebloggeraward.wordpress.com/vba-rules/ Jovanhanna is a life strategist and mom with an amazing story. She's the founder of Positive Forward Movement. http://www.jovanhannakristina.com/ Mz G is a writer, artist. musician and more. Her inspiring blog encourages women over fifty to "live an electrifying second half". http://www.itaintover.com/ Harley King's Monday Morning Motivation will be valuable for your life every day, not just on Mondays! http://harleyinspiration.blogspot.com/ Noreen invites her readers to join her and her hubby on th...

Hello! I have news to share! And links to wonderful blogs! And some facts about me that you might not know! The news is that I was honored to receive The Versatile Blogger's Award from  +Robert Fuller . He told me that he found my writing style engaging. Wow, that made my day! Mr. Fuller is a social media marketing strategist. He has an amazing life story and a very thoughtful blog. In fact it's called Thoughtful Talk Blog.  His writing is so motivational and its focus is to help people make positive changes in every aspect of their lives! http://www.thoughtfultalkblog.com/blog/ One of  the VBA rules is that the recipient shares seven things about herself (or himself). Alrighty then, here is some Di trivia for you! 1. I've been married for over 30 years. Yes, I'm kind of old. He's even older! Ha. 2. I grew up in Roswell, New Mexico. Maybe I should get a different award: the Very Bizarre Alien! 3. I have two adult kids, a son and a daughter. (I'm a...

I need to get in touch with my inner lion. I think I located my inner owl a few days ago. No, this isn't about animal spirit guides. I've just been lacking courage and even wisdom at times, regarding my writing. The past couple of weeks have been rough for several reasons. During that time, I posted a story that was important to me. A couple of days later, I re-read it. I saw so many mistakes! Not typos. I mean entire paragraphs that were out of order, wrong wording, etc. I realized that I'd foolishly rushed the editing process to stay on my posting-once-a-week schedule. I reworked the story and posted a better version of it, but that didn't stop my confidence from taking a nosedive. I came very close to deleting my entire blog. While I was in the midst of my writer's despair, two people on two different sites praised my stories and writing style. So unexpected and very timely! I used the word despair, not because I'm being a drama queen, but...

Have you ever been in a potato relay race? The participants have to carry a potato from point A to point B, between their knees. Sounds awkward, doesn't it? Believe me, it looks even more awkward than it sounds...people trying to run with a tater positioned there, without dropping it. HA! That's what makes it soooo funny! The potato relay race became a tradition at our birthday parties when I was growing up. I say "our" parties, I mean my younger brother's and mine. I was born on February 19 and Darrell's birthday was February 28, three years later. Since the dates were so close together, and we had mutual friends, our parents would usually have one party for both of us. Our birth dates just passed recently. I've been thinking about those fun parties, that goofy race we always had, and many other smile-worthy times that we shared. Birthdays are meant to celebrate a person's life, right? So I did that this year for my bub and as a birthd...